The way I see it ex communities usually form around particularly traumatic or extreme religious movements, you don’t see ex reform or conservative Jews calling themselves ex Jew and for a reason. Also to this day sadly I am still having religion shoved down my throat and forced upon me so I can’t actually leave.

Ex-mormon is a pretty big community along with ex-JH. The difference is that Judaism is a lot smaller and more connected, most Christians and Muslims don’t support one single nation state.

As for the last point the way I see it I have been conditioned from birth to view the world a certain way, no matter what labels I use on myself that doesn’t change. Of course it would be an acceptable position but not one I will take.

I consider myself Jewish not out of any pride towards my people but the complete opposite, I am a Jew and deeply ashamed to be so. I grew up Jewish, surrounded almost entirely by Jews, with Jewish culture, to believe that I can simply separate myself from its influence is absurd.

For me Judaism is chains for which I will never truly escape, it shaped the way I think from the earliest age and no amount of conscious action can change that. So I do the only logical thing, I don’t hide that I’m Jewish but even as an antizionist myself I do not deserve forgiveness or pity.

The blood of the innocent will forever stain my people and in this crime I am not innocent, I am guilty as a bystander and a witness. Nothing I could possibly do will ever relieve me of the guilt nor should it, I can simply do the best I can from this point on.